Even today, I look back with great sadness on the 22 years I spent in that marriage. It wasn’t all bad but there definitely wasn’t enough good. I was told by a marriage counselor that the balance should be a 5/1 ratio, five good experiences for every bad one in a relationship. For me it was 1/1.  I never knew what I was gonna get! I can’t wish it all away  because I would be wishing my babies away with it. Can’t do that. So as bad as it was, maybe there was a reason for it??? I have no idea what that could have been but I’m sure one day when I look back in retrospect, I’ll see how God’s plan unfolded. Can’t wait for THAT day!

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